To Heaven and Back (Chapter One)

Chapter One

She sat by the window...staring out into space...her mind millions of light years away from her body. Her thought were back to where she started...where she came from...how was she going to face her present and her future? She couldn’t get past her past...and it was slowly killing her...
Thoughts of her childhood...thoughts of how she lost her childhood in one flick of a second. How ashamed she felt after...the nightmares that came after that...how she lost her trust in her most trusted loved ones...how could she ever go on?

She was fifteen, and yet felt like fifty. She felt like she knew everything. She felt like life was no longer worthy to live on...she took up her penknife...stared at it for a moment and imagined how it would feel like to slide it over her wrist. She put the blade on her wrist...and slowly but surely, sliced it across her wrist, drawing blood from the cut. She felt pain, but the pain was nothing compared the pain she felt in her heart. She felt blood coursing out from the wound, and it was like life oozing out of her. She lifted her hand, and cut the blade into her wound the second time, making the cut deeper, drawing more blood. Blood pumped out of her like a river overflowing the banks, she felt her strength leaving her...she dropped the blade, letting her hands fall freely. The pain felt good now, she embraced it. It would be over soon she knew. The misery that she knew as life was going to be over soon.

She slipped onto the floor, lying against the wall. She closed her eyes, feeling peace at last as her life poured out of her. She saw her life flashing across her eyes, her achievements, her success, and her regrets. She slowly lost her consciousness and everything went black...